Nobody really cares

I feel like nobody cares about me. When you are alive, you are alive. They only care when you are dead. Nobody appreciate you when you are alive. When you are dead they regrat the time they could have had with you but didn’t care enough to give you.

Happy to be

I’m happy to be. I’m home, alone, got the house to myself, listening to music on Pandora. and I’m just happy to be. no matter how shity I feel my life are. I’m happy, to, be.

So it’s been awhile since I wrote something. So many things happend, Obama is the president, I got another job, I finally got my raise, still looking for a place, dropped school, my logo I did for one class made it to the final 5. And I’m sure I’m forgetting something.

I just been lazy and didn’t think of it enough to write, no, wait Obama president is big, I just didn’t feel like writing. Didn’t think many are reading anyways, so I told myself write when you feel like it.

I’m happy now. got the house to myself, listening to music on Pandora, I created a new station with “Kings of Leon” so far most of the songs were awesome, and fitting for my mood.

I like having the walkie

Yesterday I worked from 5pm till 3am. I like Thursdays so far. New movies come in. We put them together and then watch. What I like about it is that it is different from what I do during the rest of the week which is the same and can get boring (but easy so can’t complain too much). I start the movies, make sure everything is ok, and that’s pretty much it. But on Thursdays I build movies.

I like walking with the Walkie Talkie. It kinda makes a stand to the people who see you, the customers, that I’m in charge. I know, I’m not the boss. But still I do have a pretty important role. And, well, I don’t know. It gives me a nice feeling. I’m walking tall. Now I’m not trying to be cocky show off or anything I just like the feeling. And by the way everyone seems to love me and have great things to say about me.

The quarter ended. I aced one class that I enjoyed though didn’t feel that I learn too much. I failed the other class because I was careless and didn’t show up for the final. I could have passed if I only went. I had to finsih some assigment. I guess I felt like this final assignment didn’t have much to do with the class and didn’t feel like finishing it. I also didn’t learn anything at all, and I am at the point where I want to learn not just do the work the get a degree (actually sometimes I tell myself “come on now, enough, just finish it, and get the damn degree”). I also didn’t like the teacher. She didn’t teach us anything!! The class was also on Fridays 8am, and on Thursdays I don’t get off work before 1am… No big deal, well yes a lot of money wasted, but hopefully this time, next quarter, the professore will be better and really teach something.

I hate that I don’t care about my mess

I hate having too many things I want to do or get done. I got a lot of things, small things, like writing an email to my teacher, organizing school papers, organizing my desk, put back my all music on my computer (I had to format it a few a months ago), and a few more things. I guess these things aren’t too important to get down, but for some reason I get stressed. I like things to be clean, organize, and in their place, and it drives me nuts (may be not enough) when it’s all one big mess. It comes and goes. I feel stuck and can’t get other things done. But I just don’t feel like starting to organize everything. So I keep letting the mess get bigger and bigger. I’m angry with myself that it doesn’t bother me enough to do anything about it. I want to clean the mess, but I just keep putting it off to later. I’m not sure where I’m going with this. I’ll stop here.

50 Ways to Help the Planet

What’s better than watching a movie for free? being paid to watch a movie, Hoo-hah!!!

I can’t sleep. I’m too excited. You could say I got promoted today. I knew it was coming, and actually today I was planning on asking my boss about it. I work at the cinemas. I started at the snack bar, and I guess I did a superb job. One of the bosses was watching me. One day, less than 3 weeks after I was hired, he came and pulled me aside. He said that he is very impressed with what he sees and that he heard good things from other people as well, and he asked if I’d be interested in working at the booth, at the projector. He said he only puts there people he trusts because if you make a mistake there it can be very costly. I said I wouldn’t mind giving it a shot. Since then I thought about it more, and because it is more money, it will look good on my resume, and it’s another cool skill that will be nice to learn, I decided that I need to ask him about it. I was gonna ask him today, but before I was able to he told me, when he saw me walk in, that he wants me to work at the booth today, funny aye?!

I think there are more friendly employees there. Well at least ones that know more English and not only Spanish, so I can chat with them.

I feel a little awkward now when I walk by the snack bar  seen other employees that have been working there way more than me and weren’t offered this position (yes it’s only been one day there are more to come). I do feel I deserve it and earn it. But still if you would place the employees on a ladder, I will be above many of them after working there only a month (some are supervisors/assistant managers so they are probably high up there too).
I am now allowed to take what’s called the manager cups for the sodas, not those little two sips ones that the ones who work in the snack bar get. Yes they can fill it up as many times as they want, and probably the reason that the employees working at the projector get the manager cup (it’s a about a medium size cup that you get in every fast food) is because we have to be up there at the projector room most of the time. But still it’s like a different rank in the military. Like I got more power. It’s like me saying “Ha Ha I’ve been working only for 30 days and already I get more power.” I don’t like this feeling of awkwardness, and hope that it will go away in a few days. It is what it is.

Let’s also hope that I don’t screw up and get fired. One mistake can cost the theater $3000 (like scratching the film). Two of those, and I’m probably smoked. I won’t even be getting the small cup.

In my first month I didn’t really take advantage of my privilege of getting free movie tickets. There were just no movies I wanted to really watch, and now I have to watch movies – it’s part of the job. When a new movie comes you need to watch it and make sure you put it all together nicely (the film comes in a few parts, like 3-4). So I also went from getting free movies to being paid to watch movies. How cool is that. Yeah I’m the new guy and will probably be stuck watching the crappy ones, but still it’s pretty awesome.

Been working a lot

A month ago I finally found a job. I’m working at the cinemas. I’ve been working a lot; working till late. I don’t have much time to do other stuff. I sleep a lot. I work till midnight then go to sleep around 3 then wake up around 1 and then work at 5 again. That’s how most of my week goes by. No complains, but I’m just saying I don’t really have time to do other things. I don’t have anything too important to do.

As a person who loves to go to the movies and for the past, I don’t know, maybe 2 years I’ve been going a lot. In the summer I can go to 2 movies a week. I just love it. For me it’s like meditation. I don’t care what movie it is. For 2 hours I’m taking a break from everyday life. I just sit there with my popcorn and like a little kid I’m being told a story. I go alone mostly. I don’t like talking while the movie is playing anyways. I go alone – it’s kinda like a “me time” just being with myself, no need to wait for anyone, talk and all that stuff.

You would think that I would see a lot more movies since I’m working at the cinemas (we get to see free movies). I thought so too, but I’m not. I’m not seeing much movies. I work 5 days a week usually, and on my days off I don’t really feel like going to work to see a movie. What I’m doing is on my breaks I go in and watch a bit of a movie that I already saw. I loved the new batman movie! And I’ve been going in to watch it on my breaks a lot. I love the action, I love the music, and I love the way Heath Ledger plays the Joker. I haven’t seen to many movies of him. I don’t think he ever played such a mean, freak, crazy role. He nailed it. I hope they give him the Oscar, not because he died, but because he actually plays it sooo well! Those little things like how he sticks his tongue out when he talks are awesome. You can see that he really put in to playing this role the best he could.

Maybe it’s because I’m not that excited about the movies that are out right now. I mean it’s only been a month since I started working at the cinemas. Yeah I think that’s it. There are some cool movie coming out on September. Burn After Reading looks funny – looks like a funny role by Brad Pitt. Bangkok Dangerous and Righteous Kill both look like fine actions movies. The Eagle Eye trailer looks stupid but I’ll probably watch it. Ghost Town looks funny. Appaloosa looks ok too. Blindness looks like a strong movie I’ll have to watch it. And How to Lose Friends & Alienate People, Religulous, and What Just Happened? coming out in October look good too. So maybe in the next two month I’ll start taking more advantage of the privilege I get from working at the cinemas.

I have sleep apnea, that get’s me high

It was something in my to-do list that I’ve been procrastinating.

When I went on a study abroad in London of Fall 2006 my roommate mentioned it about the snoring (though it seems like he was able to sleep just fine). The were times when I fall asleep on the bus, and people next to me would hear. And also on the times a few of us went traveling to Scotland and Amsterdam. I think it was after all that, that I realized that something had to be done.

And so I add a thing to my to-do list, and that is to have a sleep study. I thought of doing it before going on my trip to the Far East Asia, but I didn’t. So a few others had to “suffer” from my snoring. But again it seems like most of the guys slept well, but not all, one i think it was too much on him. Yeah, you should have figured it by now, I snore so very very load.

to keep you on the procrastination time line I went on this trip Dec 10 2007 and came back Match 25 2008. Study Abroad was Fall 2006

anyways I got back from an amazing trip that unfortunately had to be cut short because if a scooter accident I had (soon to be a post by itself about that). I schedule an appointment with the sleep clinic, I came in for a sleep study and they found that I have a sever sleep apnea. So I have this machine I’m suppose to sleep with that pushes air into your mouth (in my case I stop breathing for about 85times for between 5 and 10 sec all in just one hour – yeah that’s a lot). Anyways the first mask they gave wasn’t comfortable so I’m not trying a new one, and also taking this sleeping pill that they gave me to help me fall asleep, and boy do i love this pill (-:

a fun puzzle game

Heya all, I found this fun game. It can get challenging but not to a point where you stop. Only to a point when you realize its not going to be easy but then try a big more just for the hack of it and BOOM you nail it!! Click the pic and read the instructions, they’re quick and easy to understand. I think this game resembles the more known SuDuKo game… try it out, have fun

how can I, like, not go nuts?

How can I like not go nuts from like all these like students that are like sitting like all around me and like talking like all the time like during class and like keep like saying the word “like” like all the time?!