A note I wrote for myself:

Approach a girl. Doesn’t matter who, doesn’t have to be a hottie. She can be a so-so. Approach the chick, and say “hey, how are you? can I have your phone number?” with an expectation of getting a “no” respond. There is not much you can do, the “no” will hurt, but it will make you tougher everytime for the next time. You will be more relaxed. And then it is like the domino effect, girls will notice this confident. You will simply be you. Without stressing or stuttering. You will be relaxed. And good things will happen.

Sometimes I wish I couldn’t feel because there is too many bad feelings, doesn’t matter how many good feelings are there, it’s just not worth it. And in my case they seem to be way more frequent than the good ones.

I feel like nobody cares about me. When you are alive, you are alive. They only care when you are dead. Nobody appreciate you when you are alive. When you are dead they regrat the time they could have had with you but didn’t care enough to give you.